"You know what's wrong with you, Miss Whoever-you-are? You're chicken, you've got no guts. You're afraid to stick out your chin and say, "Okay, life's a fact, people do fall in love, people do belong to each other, because that's the only chance anybody's got for real happiness." You call yourself a free spirit, a "wild thing," and you're terrified somebody's gonna stick you in a cage. Well baby, you're already in that cage. You built it yourself. And it's not bounded in the west by Tulip, Texas, or in the east by Somali-land. It's wherever you go. Because no matter where you run, you just end up running into yourself."
-Breakfast At Tiffany's
Couldn't have said it better myself. Again with the mixed feelings! I love being able to fit everything I own in a few suitcases. I hate that I once I started college I can't just feel settled in one place. I know I brought it upon myself by coming to California. To be fair, though, I didn't come thinking I'd get attached and not want to leave. I came for adventure that would feel like long term vacation and some kind of a break.
This was not a break away from life. This was real and this was life. I think that's what makes me sad.
I've had to say goodbye to multiple people already. People I'll probably never see again. A part of me is affected by it a lot and it's overwhelming. Another part of me, though, is taking this opportunity to learn to be more independent. Which is my word for training myself to not get attached to people. I'm just not so sure that's a good thing.
"You musn't give your heart to a wild thing",
Angela
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